I hear you calling

My heart hurts for I hold her in my arms are she slowly dies and I cry, I cry,
HELP. Please help. You walk past  step over me and ignore our pain as she tries to soothe my soon to be loss.
And I hear you calling  back to the goddess before your time.
And I hear you calling but I call to your soul for you are my souls nature and creator and I hear you calling the end I beg you to stay but you wont listen to my call.
And I hear you calling.
Help.
Please Help.
But no one will come and my soul slowly dies with her and I cry,
Please someone HELP because I hear her calling.
I hear the clock tolling and I start to understand If she goes We too shall be going. He and I and She.
I am young and she is too I want us all to stay for our spirits deserves some ecstasy.
But still I hear my calling. My calling for help, for compassion, for tenderness, for true love.
She is mother to everything and you will let her die. As you let everything of the Earth die. And I shall cry and soon you shall hear my calling.
For He and I and She shall no longer give light to this universe and shall no longer be.
Soon you shall cry and say , “I can not hear you calling.”
But we shall be gone. Rejoice.

Lately

Lately
Ive been so lonely.

I have realized i'm not surrounded by smiling people anymore and most of my supposed friends have forgotten me an no matter how many messages and texts I send...no reply.

Maybe I have wrong numbers..I hope so.
Its alright to be alone...but I'm a sun creature and lately I've felt lost in the dark
Like an old childhood treasure, locked away and forgotten in this old box.
Who will comfort me now?
Who will smile with me now?
Who will listen to my sad and happy stories tonight, like every other night
and may nights after that?

Lately
Ive felt selfish
Perhaps Ive gone asked too much of those around me
and asked too little of myself.

Lately
I've felt full
Of anger and anguish. Like a proud lioness trapped in a cage on a page of storybook about her.
What does she feel?
Why cant she sing?
She does not allow tears and lets out roars full of red fears.
She crumbles where no one can see then walks around with a smile never frowns leaves bloody foot steps
seen left for miles.

Poor Child.

April 12

April 12, 2011
2:51am

The days have gone by and you still have learned nothing of your pain and all you do is pick fights like a child. Have you learned nothing in life? All you do is cry and live in your past forever a sad vulture eating away at its own life.

It hurts me too.

Falling In Love

Friday, November 5, 2010

Falling in love

Falling In Love

I find myself at the ripening age of 18 on a path to self discovery.

And I have found that I am falling in love.

From my heart I felt an ease and calm that would soothe the storm of my soul. I wish I could share my feelings with the world but I can't, everyone must find this path on their own.

I look and I see these dark figures and their shapely stature and uncover the layers of myself. I feel success and beauty in My dark skin, My big lips, My nappy hair and

My curvaceous body.

I feel pride on My path to self discovery. Pride in descending from slaves. My heart swells with emotions only a person alike myself can understand and feel.And I have found that

I am falling in love.

I am in love with My dark skin that was said to be too dark, and in love with My dark eyes that were said to be as black as space, and in love with My big nose that was said to take up too much of My face.

I have found that I have fallen in love with a Black Woman and that women is ME.

 

my phone

my tumblr has most of my extremely depressing emo uhhh poems in it now. But i miss you Blogger

Music For the Week IV

Keri Hilson - Pretty Girl Rock

 

I can do the pretty girl rock rock
Rock to the pretty girl rock rock rock
Now what's your name?

My name is Keri, I'm so very
Fly oh my it's a little bit scary
Boys wanna marry looking at my derrierre
You can stare but if you touch it I'ma bury

Pretty as a picture
Sweeter than a swisher
Mad cause I'm cuter than the girl that's with ya
I ain't gotta talk about it baby you can see it
But if you want I'll be happy to repeat it

My name is Keri, I'm so very
Fly oh my it's a little bit scary
Boys wanna marry looking at my derrierre
You can stare but if you touch it I'ma bury

Pretty as a picture
Sweeter than a swisher
Mad cause I'm cuter than the girl that's with ya
I can talk about it cause I know that I'm pretty
And if you know it too then ladies sing it with me

[Keri Hilson]
All eyes on me when I walk in,
No question that this girl's a 10
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful
My walk my talk the way I dress
It's not my fault so please don't trip
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful

[Kanye West]
For the nigga they love to hate
But all the bad model girls they love to date
You need to check my swag and get up to date
Check check my swag and get up to date
cuz when we cut I'm razorblading
I'm so lazer, I'm so major
I'm so Flava, I'm so Flava
I should have a clock on
get ya, get ya, get ya pretty girl rock on
for all my girls from Atlanta down to Stockholm
and they looking like what the hell you got on
"what you mean babygirl? I got homes!"
Different cribs, new whips
and I'm feelin fly, fly like a G6
fly, my swag hit ladies unknowingly
please to meet ya, its a pleasure knowing me
back when I was poor I used to pull em with my poetry
tick that yes or no for me, I guarantee she go with me
but the only thing I need to know right now
what a pretty girl like you doing in this part of town
with a city girl swag and a country girl smile
I mean you demoralising bitches with your style
woow, well how about now
my jewelery so bloaw, my girls so wow
I mean, I mean swag so loud
I guess thats the reason all the concerts so Owwww.

[Keri Hilson]
Aye, now do the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock
All my ladies do the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock rock
Do the pretty girl rock

Now where you at?

If you're looking for me you can catch me
Cameras flashing, daddy's turned his head as soon as I passed him
Girls think I'm conceited cause I know I'm attractive
Don't worry about what I think why don't you ask him?

Get yourself together don't hate (never do it),
jealousy is the ugliest trait (don't ever do it)
I can talk about it cause I know that I'm pretty
And if you know it too then ladies sing it with me

All eyes on me when I walk in
No question that this girl's a 10
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful
My walk my talk the way I dress
It's not my fault so please don't trip

Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful

All eyes on me when I walk in,
No question that this girl's a 10
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful.
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful.
My walk my talk the way I dress
It's not my fault so please don't trip
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful
Don't hate me cause I'm beautiful

My room

I stand in the small room walls ever changing color as I feel trapped in my room, these four walls.

Anger and sadness 
red and blue my heart feels in swirls and i wonder why i feel such hatred for my normal surroundings this that are and have forever been.

I feel trapped so I fight like a child.
I fight kick and scream as the night comes to me and I look thru the window.

The out calls to me and I cant reach I keep grasping but I cant.
 My hands become bloody as I punch walls and my body acquires lacerations as I scratch at the walls.


Then nothing as I lie a bloody heap in the middle of these walls.


The out calls to me but I cant reach. 
 No matter how far I go... I cant escape me 

Peace

Sometimes Death has a Peace Life cannot give.
I found my heart died many years ago killed by you
selfish man who is incapable of love.
Sometimes love isnt what you thought it would be.
Love is a liar. And
Everyone hates Liars.

I feel a reluctance to be.