Lately

Lately
Ive been so lonely.

I have realized i'm not surrounded by smiling people anymore and most of my supposed friends have forgotten me an no matter how many messages and texts I send...no reply.

Maybe I have wrong numbers..I hope so.
Its alright to be alone...but I'm a sun creature and lately I've felt lost in the dark
Like an old childhood treasure, locked away and forgotten in this old box.
Who will comfort me now?
Who will smile with me now?
Who will listen to my sad and happy stories tonight, like every other night
and may nights after that?

Lately
Ive felt selfish
Perhaps Ive gone asked too much of those around me
and asked too little of myself.

Lately
I've felt full
Of anger and anguish. Like a proud lioness trapped in a cage on a page of storybook about her.
What does she feel?
Why cant she sing?
She does not allow tears and lets out roars full of red fears.
She crumbles where no one can see then walks around with a smile never frowns leaves bloody foot steps
seen left for miles.

Poor Child.

April 12

April 12, 2011
2:51am

The days have gone by and you still have learned nothing of your pain and all you do is pick fights like a child. Have you learned nothing in life? All you do is cry and live in your past forever a sad vulture eating away at its own life.

It hurts me too.

Falling In Love

Friday, November 5, 2010

Falling in love

Falling In Love

I find myself at the ripening age of 18 on a path to self discovery.

And I have found that I am falling in love.

From my heart I felt an ease and calm that would soothe the storm of my soul. I wish I could share my feelings with the world but I can't, everyone must find this path on their own.

I look and I see these dark figures and their shapely stature and uncover the layers of myself. I feel success and beauty in My dark skin, My big lips, My nappy hair and

My curvaceous body.

I feel pride on My path to self discovery. Pride in descending from slaves. My heart swells with emotions only a person alike myself can understand and feel.And I have found that

I am falling in love.

I am in love with My dark skin that was said to be too dark, and in love with My dark eyes that were said to be as black as space, and in love with My big nose that was said to take up too much of My face.

I have found that I have fallen in love with a Black Woman and that women is ME.